Baka naman hindi lang ikaw ang nagbago.. baka ako din.

Farewell

At first glance you were just a typical person but I've seen some good aspects within you. I did not give much attention to you then. Because you were often far away from my sight and the feeling I felt for you is not strong. And now, as we get closer with each other, I see the traits in you that I never before noticed. As the pendulum of the clock continues to turn back and forth and time passed by, you become part of every minutes of my thoughts. Then I've realized that I should take it easy and composed myself, because I know that letting it flow in the ocean of anticipations I will drowned and never will be able to turn back. But the feeling is now so strong that I forgot to suppress it.



How can I forget you? Your sweetness and sense of humor. Can I still be able to withdraw from my mind the jokes you cracked with me whenever we're together? How can I forget the thoughtful little things you've done for me, the appreciations you showed to me? But that was all you can do, no more no less.

I dont want to expect anything from you, thats why I should bid goodbye for my own sake. I should give my ego a little or even more a chance to recover from the dilemma, to the delusion Im in to. And from then on, I can face you again with me carrying a sense of self worth and pride.

I should forget my feelings for you. Forgetting means closing my door to the possibilities that will come my way when it comes to dealing with you. Maybe if I do it, I can renew my whole being, I can now pick up the mess and pieces. From this day, I will re-organize my thoughts without you being there anymore. Saying goodbye is the hardest part of the game but getting over you is the most difficult to be done. Farewell to my old self and welcome to my new beginning....

My Bestfriend

Hi! I know I kinda surprised you for this letter. But I just want to say Thank You! for all the good things you've done to me and for listening to my nonesense story that somehow makes me feel important. And maybe you dont realize that you made me happy...yes...you really did.

Since you became a friend of mine, you've been doing a lot of favors to me that sometimes I dont have a guts to thank you. So I'm saying it now coz I know its the right time and the right way .

I also want to say sorry for my rough attitude sometimes. I know that I've been childish in someway. But through the years I guess you already know the real me and perhaps you'll understand me as always...

P.S. I hope our friendship will last forever.

12/25/96